Suicide (For those of you that have contemplated Suicide, thank you for holding on, when all you could do was give up, You are so strong and you mean so much to this world. Thank you for remembering that even when other’s have forgotten, I see you, and I Know and I love you Completely Never let go ~KendraDivinePurpose~

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It doesn’t have to come to suicide but I understand it often does. That’s why I do what I do, and why so many other healers like me have learned valuable tools to bring healing to the collective. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide please Contact Me, or reach out to someone without fear, knowing that at your emotions are valid and acceptable. The only fear is living one more day suffering in silence. It’s ok, to not Feel ok! When we feel empowered to embrace our emotions with full loving acceptance, even the darkest ones. This is when we allow our body to process the emotions and discharge the stuck energy to complete the trauma cycle, allowing the light to shine through on the other side.
It’s when we are shamed or punished, not allowed to not be ok, to not feel how we feel, is when we resist our own skin, when self hate consumes our minds, making us doubt our own ability to feel and behave “Normally.” We divide ourselves into acceptable and unacceptable aspects, trying on different masks we’ve learned from someone else, all to try to escape from the hate we hold within.

The mind creates different ways to cope. Either by splitting our consciousness out of our bodies, or by creating new people, new personalities that don’t have coherent access to the suppressed positive resource either, but they do, have amnesia from the experience that caused the blocks and created the pain in the first place.  The pain that you carry with you today.

It’s not about what’s broken within us, or about what’s gone wrong with us, it’s simply what has Happened to us! And I mean all of us, not just war hero’s. We’ve all experienced trauma,  tragedy, heart break,  loss, destruction, and devastation, in one way or another. It’s about accepting and owning our feelings, being lovingly present with all of them, knowing that they are ok. That you are allowed to feel any and all of your emotions, without needing to explain, or make excuses to anyone including yourself.    Just be, and allow, knowing they are all valid and worth your conscious attention.

The thing is we’ve gone about finding this acceptance for our emotional states, looking outside of ourselves for validation, before we even allow our conscious mind to fully connect to the “unacceptable” emotion to have full awareness of it.   This is when we do things and create situations that cause us to respond from a place of trauma. Manifesting our conscious reality from the dark shadows of our subconscious mind. This is when our positive resources become blocked, and instead of being mindfully aware of any given situation, able to respond at our highest and best capacity.  We instead react from survival instinct that the situation activated, triggering your body to release the stuck trauma cycle you interrupted somewhere in your past.  The thing that everyone needs to understand is that pretending our emotions don’t exist, hasn’t worked!  It’s only created more illness, and perpetual suffering.

Every negative experience is driven by these stuck suppressed emotions. It causes glitches in our systems. Ever noticed how accidents happen when your already pissed off or having a crappy day?  That’s because that negative energy is literally a magnetically charged energy field around you forcefully pulling like frequencies (negative energy) into your energy field.

Our emotions demand to be felt, no matter what your telling yourself they are still there, growing with more aches, illness, and issues that you probably believe are all unrelated.
Energy gets stuck, when it’s suppressed, It’s not allowed to flow.  But our energetic bodies don’t work when we force them to do something our mind beliefs is better. Our minds interrupt the process not allowing the body to do what it needs to do to complete the natural cycles. When you interrupt a trauma cycle from completing, you live stuck in it, until something is triggered to activate an old memory or sensory experience of like frequency to allow the trauma to complete itself.  I’ll use myself as an example. To say that I’ve experienced more trauma then one person she have experienced in a lifetime is putting it mildly. I’ve been to the bottom just before death and I fought my way back to the light. I’m at a point now where I’m thankful for my trauma because it’s allowed for me to be able to go to the depths of anyone’s pain meeting them where they are, and guide them out of the darkness. Because their darkness doesn’t scare me, it’s where I lived the majority of my life and now I get to use my experience to facilitate healing for Anyone in search of awakening. I know that if I can heal truly anyone can too.

The majority of my life experience has been traumatic, partly because I supressed the negative emotions I had about the trauma and loss I experienced in my childhood.  I’d raise my frequency high enough to no longer live in my past experiences, not knowing these were all incomplete stuck energy, so I was always completely blindsided when more trauma would seemingly come out of no where.   I’d be feeling happy, my life would be going great, and success would be within reach.  Everytime I’d throw it to the universe, I’d ask the Universe to help me keep it together long enough to grab this dream and everytime without fail the universe would manifest my reality of every trigger, every trauma, everything I hadn’t dealt with, was forcefully brought to my reality.  Because it’s exactly what I asked the universe for.  I didn’t want to be held back anymore by crazy situations that completely destroyed my potential future. I found a way to find blame in everything else other than my intentions. My intentions tucked way back in my subconscious mind.   I spent a few years banging my head into a wall with these cycles until I finally started to see these patterns. Thank God, I’m terrible at math, or I could have probably found a pattern to avoid every unwanted experience. But finally a few years ago, after litteraly losing my whole family, my house, my car, my relationship, completely alone, homeless. That’s when it hit me, my life started to make sense and started to shift.  I finally got the message loud and clear from the universe, that I was no longer allowed to pretend to be something that I’m not and put off doing what I came here to do any longer because the only option other awakening was death. Finally for the first time in my life I didn’t want to die but from the frequency I was vibrating at, near death experiences were my everyday life and I didn’t have the energy to watch out for danger around every corner any longer, so I surrendered.  I gave up fighting to survive. I managed to buy myself another car by then and the transmission goes out leaving me stuck by myself in an apartment for a month. I didn’t see that the universe was protecting me from getting killed, I thought I was being punished.  Then the universe took away my ability to sleep for nearly the whole month.  I would try to take things into my body and I’d instantly throw up.  I couldn’t eat much of anything and my body was constantly vibrating. I remember crying thinking this was how I was going to die, after all of this fighting, and now I actually made the conscious decision to live. I called a therapist I respected that I had studied under. He told me to release my ability to feel fear for just one day if a fearful thought came up, just acknowledge it but suspend my ability to feel into it. So I did for one whole day and what happened next is so crazy that I don’t even know if I can put it into words.

I had this spiritual awakening that catapulted me into another dimension. Every thought that I had ever thought was all being answered. I had this new awareness of why my life had gotten so incredibly fucked up.  I could see solution and new roads to travel. My connection to spirit was unblocked my intuition was more clear than ever and my general disposition was just calmer but with more intensity.

Since that experience I can’t really describe it but the reality I was previously living in didn’t have any power over me. I could see it clearly for what it was and that was that.  No more getting into meaningless fights over contradicting beliefs. I finally saw that everyone was entitled to there own perspective and it wasn’t my job to change it for them.

Since my awakening I’ve only experienced one extremely powerless moment that scared me but allowed me to completely trauma cycles I’d been carrying since grade school.  And since I now have learned tools necessary to heal.  It took that last experience for me to understand that I never got away from my pain I only created more of it by trying to get away from it.  I learned that in order to create the life you’ve always dreamed of,  you first have to heal the nightmares from your past, so you can clearly see the path your manifesting from.

If you can’t see what you want than your manifesting from your subconscious mind. By our subconscious mind hijacking our cognitive functioning,  driving our response systems into defense of our survival instincts that are currently being triggered by the sensory feeling your experiencing. This is when we respond and react in such a way that leads us to do, say, react, and respond in ways that we regret, that we need forgiveness for. By this time though, you’ve already abandoned yourself so don’t be surprised at what you may do to other’s. It’s time to turn the eyes inside and stop with the blame game, it’s a pointless battle that no one Will Ever Win.

So basically you’ve been living just a trigger or two away from emotionally re-experiencing the exact trauma you’ve been desperately trying to avoid, and over and over and over again you manifest the same horrible feeling even though you’ve changed all of  outside contributing factors, Except Yourself.

Maybe you became consumed by trying to control your reality, you don’t let things that remind you of pain to enter and when you have no choice but allow it to, you can’t understand why your having panic attacks. Maybe you finally got up the courage to express your feelings to the one your in love with, to be painfully rejected. So from that day forward you put up walls, responding with carefully crafted behavior to achieve the desired responses from others.  DOESN’T THAT SOUND EXHAUSTING? HAVEN’T YOU BEEN FAKING IT Until YOU MAKE IT, FOR WAY TOO LONG?

Even if your the very best actor in Hollywood it still will never exempt you from the law of attraction because you can’t force yourself to believe something that you don’t believe and you can’t think I don’t want something without your focus upon it. You can’t lie to your body by telling yourself that you love yourself, when you have all these unacceptable emotions that you hide.

News Flash..  Your body is still experiencing everything you’re mind says is fine. Your body is not against you and neither is the universe. If your mind is the only one out of the 3 that has the ability to manipulate, then why is it we continue to point the fingers outside? Your subconscious mind manifests these thought patterns in attempts to keep you safe, but now it is the only thing actually causing you pain.  It’s time to detox our minds and shift our focus to find new proof for the reality we want to create letting go of the hyper focus on what we don’t want.  Focus on what you do want and let go of the fear that your not allowed to have everything you ever dreamed of, because now you remember that you came here to experience greatness and now looking through the lenses of your truth authentic self you can finally see that you are ment to be here and everything you ever dreamed of is ment to be yours, because you can not desire something without the ability to manifest you’re desires, when you live in a universe that’s governed by Law Of Attraction.

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Experiencing Feelings

You have not failed if you have a bad day, thinking you have is cruelty. Our emotions are always children and should be cared for as such.

Experiencing your thoughts. All that we have in the now, are our feelings. Feeling are states of consciousness were you are perceiving the conscious mind relates, the ego interprets the meaning to those feelings. Emotions are limited to the physical dimensions. Feed back system to the body. Physiological reactions to your thoughts.

What does sadness feel like in my body? Your brain isn’t defective stop running away from your feelings and fully go into the emotions. Drop into that feeling until the new sensation is left in a more positive sensation. When you feel strong negative emotion you surrender into it. What does it feel like, what does it look like? Follow each sensation as it shifts. When your ego pulls you back into the story of your belief systems, bring yourself back.
What have you been experiencing?
Pay attention to your body and feel what that feels like to your body? Observe it and be with it until it shifts?

Why does a river run one way, not another? Can it be coaxed into changing course? A deviation may be attainable but diversion is a very different to reversal. Some processes are natural and intrinsically right? Why do we waste time and effort to rail against them?  Even when the cosmos force us to face the facts that are hard to accept, we still must find a way to accept them. As frustrating as this may be, it can also be the source of amazing blessings. Be wise enough today, to work with what you cannot stand against!

I think therefore I am not,
Only when the mind is silent I am.

Unity Consciousness

It is believed that the journey to enlightenment starts by turning the eyes inside out and there is an african proverb that states “when there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot touch you”. As we have all learned by now, the way that view the world around us, is a projection of our inner world, and so our quest for happiness, enlightenment and satisfaction lies primarily upon filling our selves with light and love in order to then radiate it into the world.

The point being, we are the light because we are awareness and when we can increase our awareness, we expand our consciousness. That is, we make the unseen-seen and bring unconscious thought forward into a consciously understandable level.

You see, awareness is like a field of energy, “awareness is in your whole being, awareness of itself is like a light inside, do not imagine in as the sort of light you see, light and awareness is one of the same thing” – Mai Agate Valjataga.

All is one. We are all one. We are all connected and every man and woman is your brother and your sister. This isn’t religion, this is science.  While there are many interpretations of unity consciousness, and many perceptions to be had. Today I will give you a glimpse of mine own. I am not asking that you believe it, I am not telling you to take it as the “gospel”. What I am going to tell is that this is my perception. This is what I saw when I found the light, when I projected out of my body and into the universe and this is what resonates with me. We are not children of god because we are one with god not separate. We are all creator’s working towards expansion. We aren’t given things we don’t need, every person, place, and thing, is to be learned from, and ultimately for our universal benefit.
My physical body is the projection of my creator because I am just a cell in its body. I see that the planets are also cells, and we are cells within those same cells. My aura is my protoplasm and my body is the nucleus.

The entire universe is creation at all moments; cell multiplication, regeneration, death and rebirth. I see the big bang as the moment the sperm entered the egg. I see the milky way as the semen of the gods, and I see that I am a universe. Because I am capable of creating life, and I am part of creation, I am also a god.

When we create life we are creating a universe of cells with their own unique consciousness, no matter how small. I see that my soul is a spark in the night sky, a star, and when I leave my physical body and ascend into the heavens, I will shine bright for all to see. You and me.

Message For Empaths

Message For Empaths

December 5, 2016

Kendra

 

Raise your frequency and the frequency of those around by introducing a new vibration of Joy, Love, Passion, Purpose,instead of sinking into the pain of others. I’m sharing my experience with what I personally do anytime I feel a stuck or uncomfortable frequency around me. 
 I recently relocated from Phoenix, Arizona to Utah for work and to follow my spiritual purpose. Everything that led me to this move was filled with joy and clear cut signs, that were apparent to everyone in my environment. I hadn’t really thought about The details of how everything would fall into place, I just knew that it would.
  The energy in Provo Utah is stuck in silent suppression. Gum on the bottom of your shoe, stuck to the floor, kind of feeling. It is nearly debilitating to walk into. I had just drove all night from Phoenix Az, when it first hit me. I was so excited to start my journey. 
I understand what this vibration brings, in forms of desires. After a few days of this vibration, I really started to question why the hell I moved here so I spent yesterday going into my own resistance into the stuckness within me.  Then I decided to do something about it, so introduced a new vibration to the neighborhood. 
 If you are an empath getting sucked into the pain of others and are having trouble holding a high frequency with a large crowd and you find yourself hiding away in your house feeling the need to protect yourself anytime you contact the outside world then you are missing the point of having these empathic gifts. By introducing and emitting a higher frequency you naturally raise the lower ones around you. Kinda like putting your hand in a still pound. The water ripples around your hand, and even if you leave your hand still, the water can’t push itself away from your hand to make it “you vs the water.”   If you move it flows with you, It has no ability to stop your hand from introducing a vibrating when you touch it. Now just visualize your energy and the water ripples around you. If you focuse on projecting the vibrational improvement you won’t sink into the  pain around you. Instead of adding to the level of universal suffering by sinking into the pain around, you can introduce the solution to the pain all around you.

We Aren’t Not Separate

We Aren’t Not Separate

December 7, 2016

The Other day I stopped at a gas station to get something to drink and there was a homeless man digging through the trash can. As I got out of the Car I just stood towards him, projecting love at him, and In the moment he felt it.  He started to sing so beautifully. He looked up and quickly looked back down. I went into the store and got him something to drink. Normally when I feel the homeless I stay in my car and pass it through the window. I realised in that moment that I was still keeping myself separate, yet I know separation is the root of all evil. I check in with myself as I got close to the door. “Do I drive over to find, do I feel unsafe?” The answer I got was no, because we are not separate, he is just simply a reflection of another aspect of me. As I walked out I noticed he wasn’t singing like before. I said to him if he would like a drink and snack, he said yes but quickly put his head back down. As I handed him the drink he said, “Oh thank your Royal goddess, and started to cry so hard and In that moment he flooded with me with All these memories.

If You Died Yesterday

What if you died yesterday, what would you feel looking back at your life? What legacy did you leave in your place? What dreams did you inspire? Who’s lives benefited from your existence? Did you fulfil your purpose? Did you reach self actualization? Did you use what you had from where you were everyday to make the world a better place? Did you suffer, Or did you end suffering?

Now can you feel all of the regrets you feel with the answers to these questions? Think of all of the dreams You held as a child, that never were manifested.Think of All of the time we put in to make a dollar, in front of a precious life moment. Think of All of  the memories that will now never be made.  See the children we didn’t raise, the family we never knew,  the love we couldn’t buy, the connection we could afford to create, the fun you never allowed yourself to have, the gifts you never developed, and all of the PAIN you created to replace it all! Think of all the ways you tried to Chase that pain away everyday,  yet it never subsided no matter what we used to try to cope with it! Maybe faint but still daunting. “But whatever it’s Just a way of life. ” Right?  Wait no…..

This isn’t a way of life,  It’s Litteraly Just A Painful Way To Die!

Wake up!

How does living in these boxes society has told you to fit into, brought you expansion? How has living up to someone else’s standards of should and shouldn’t, brought you great joy, love, peace, and harmony? How does working a 9 to 5 benefit anyone but the one’s your working for? How could have you used that time working towards something that would benefit everyone? When you saw injustice did you fight against, or did you create another solution? Did you have to manifest cancer or some other life threatening illness to get your priorities straight? Or where you so desperate to stop and just be nurtured by another, that you never got better? Or Did you get so confused by all of the contradictions, that you spun yourself into a dark lonely hole where no one could find you?  Did you die from not being able to cope with this painful, pointless, meaningless experience for one more day?

Our world has been standing still for over a decade and our people are growing depressed, and tired. Just wandering around with no idea what they are supposed to be doing here.  Even the “gifted one’s,” born remembering the universal truths, sent here to bring forth the messages from source to realign the planet, are struggling to do so. The fear of punishment from those in control and the trauma created in childhood from being so different, causes splits in the consciousness. They know what their purpose is, but are only part of a person by adult age. Most of them are hiding from the episodes that keep triggering really uncomfortable feelings. They avoid people because they think they are being punished by feeling the suffering around them. They have no conscious awareness that they can feel because they can transmute. They feel because they can help. But because they were socialized with the beliefs that their gods are all knowing, judging, and will punish any “sins” they make.  It becomes clear why they would think being empathic is a means of punishment. They get dragged down by society, trying to survive. Most of them highly artistic creators, without knowledge of what they can create, due to a highly restrictive and controlling socialization. So making a living, to most, is few and far between. Without an ability to support themselves, even the most truly power influential people, born with the messages to heal the world, are having a hard time navigating the logistics.

So now can you see that the only selfishness is not thinking your gifts are good enough to share? And how Sitting in a basement, perfecting your craft, truly doesn’t benefit anyone! Your higher self is already doing what you have told yourself your not ready to try. Do you understand that jealousy is admiring something you want to see in yourself, but have told yourself you could not be. Do you understand you couldn’t desire something, you aren’t ment to have?  The only reason why your desire do not manifest, is because of the thoughts you hold related to having them. You don’t believe you can have what you desire so You hate others when they mirror them to You.    You truly are the only one stopping you, from having, being and doing anything you ever dreamed of! You just have to believe you can.

So if you were given the chance to come back after dying, what would you do differently today? You might think your just one person and you can’t change the world, but if every person in the world change today, what they would regret never getting to do tomorrow, then the entire universe would shift over night. And then Maybe just then you’d realise just how powerful you really are!

Change your mind and create what you desire. Stop focusing on what could go wrong,  and get excited to see what will go Right!

Life Is To Be Celebrated Not Survived

Holiday perspective, This time is supposed to be about togetherness, giving and rejoicing. Let’s remind ourselves that we don’t have to wait for a specific occasion to do this. We can do something special for someone around us or ourselves any time we feel the need. We all deserve the benefits of a festive holiday, any day or any time the spirit moves us to do so, so then why do we wait for a holiday to honor our life and those we share it with? Why don’t we send flowers or give special gifts to those we care about when we feel like it? Or send a friendly card or cheerful email to someone we are close with or want to reach out to? These personal moments can be very enriching for all involved. Taking the time to make daily life special shouldn’t be limited to just doing something nice with others. It is equally important for us to do something nice for ourselves on a regular basis, whether it’s a walk in the park, a long hot bath, or taking a break from daily worries and stress. The time we spend honoring or treating ourselves can also give us a happier, healthier and more peaceful outlook.
The time has come to no longer put off, for tomorrow, what we should be enjoy today.
When you get so busy always planning for the future, stuck in a world where you just make a Living, when do we ever have time to have a purpose, and fulfilling Life?
Everyday should be celebrated as if it were a holiday, filled with beautiful moments of pure joy and excitement. Instead of looking back on good memories, be mindful today of the precious moment that are infinitely available to us all! When you change your mind, you change your life!
Be present every moment with positive loving intentions, and you’ll never live in regret!