What is Attraction?

Don’t walk through life looking for where you don’t belong because you will always find it.
Our attraction to another person is rarely as simple as we believe it to be at the time we experience that initial fascination. What we first register about another person is only the tip of a very deep and complex iceberg.

When our childhood needs are not met by our primary caregivers, those needs don’t just go away. Those unmet needs become our primary, unconscious motivators in our attraction to another. When we feel that strong gravitational force towards another person we often confuse this feeling with love, fate, destiny, or soul mate connection. This gravity is trigged by a deep starvation within us.  That pull that we feel is our inner child screaming to have our needs met, that were not met in childhood.  We are a vibrational match to who we attract in our life, because we either have the same wounding imprint, or we have polar aspects of the wound within us.  This meaning we either hold the same need, and through seeing it in the other your able to become conscious of it within yourself.  Or we see it, feel discomfort, and in attempts to relieve the discomfort, we project that pain onto the other person, to push our own pain away.  It is as if we are shown a mirror, and instead of seeing, and acknowledging the mirror,  we refuse to recognize the mirror and instead throw paint on the mirror to cover the reflection. We run away from it.  Neither the paint or the running away makes the mirror any less accurate in it’s reflection, nor does running away make the mirror Cease to exist.  So why then do we see the mirror and make the reflection itself the problem?  I believe that its because we see the potential of these unmet needs, that are not humanly possible for us to meet on our own, finally being met by another, and the fear of them not being met again, being more painful then the original trauma, so we stay in our pain and push the reflections away.  But the reality is that we vibrate in this way, so if we carry pain that is incomplete and have unmet needs, then our vibrational field will magnetically drawn in people that are a frequency match. We are a match to these people, circumstances, and situations that will allow us to find resolution for the pain we’ve experienced.  It does this by recreating the familiar feeling flavors or sensations with new people so that incomplete trauma cycle within us can find resolution. So our unmet needs, are able to finally be satiated by another.  The only way to break the negative cycles within relationships dynamics is to have awareness of what’s attracting us to another and the desire to move through the pain for the love of oneself and one another, not specifically just for the pain to go away.  If you push pain away you resist it, and we all know what we resist persists.

The more we as a collective consciousness wake up to this reality with desire to hold love instead of fear with coherence of both parties to consciously create cohesion and therefore completion of the trauma, so you no longer vibrate in that way, meaning you will no long be magnetically pulling in those frequencies that cause you to recreate these retraumatization patterns. What is not repaired, is repeated

If both parties are conscious of this pull and pattern within them and have a loving desire to both find harmonious resolution together, then a very direct authentic approach would bring rapid transformation for both parties. The way to do this is by creating a positive association with our triggers.  When someone is triggered by a person, place, sensation or emotion, it’s an opportunity for us to heal that trauma that exists within us.  Often we experience triggers and we lash out, run away, or demonize the mirror standing in front of us because we don’t want to acknowledge the pain that exists within us.  But like I said earlier, refusing to acknowledge the mirror as ours, projecting and running away, doesn’t change the exact accuracy of that mirror, nor is it the mirrors fault that you feel pain when you look into it.
I invite you to try this exercise the next time you feel triggered, instead of pushing the pain away, the next time you feel reactive towards another, take a step back close your eyes, breathe deep, count to 10, and allow yourself to feel the pain. Continue to breathe through the pain acknowledging any memories that come up but staying present in the here and now. If you desire to continue the conversation, do so from your heart space. Often it helps me personally to do this by placing my hand on my heart to feel my heart beat and ground in my heart mind.  When we speak authentically from heart center it’s with the desire to connect with the other, not be heard, or be right, or be validated in anyway. This is about desire to take the other as you and love them in a way that you desire to be loved.
At the end of our life we will only have a few questions that make up the entirety of our experience.

Did I Live?

Did I Love?

Did I Matter?

Our connections to one another, our relationships, are what we live, love and matter for!

Isn’t it about time we shift the unconscious styles of relating that create pain, fear and separation, into emotionally coherent conscious relationships, that capitalize on each others best interest, for the greatest of all good. As to no longer fight through life trying to survive, by avoiding potential pain in the future, but instead allowing for joyful relationships that bring expansion, while harmoniously co-create worlds of possibilities, or as I say, “co-creating Heaven On Earth.” Ultimately this life can be as pleasure or as painful as you desire so I ask that you make the choice and choose either one with conscience intentions.  Then the shadow and the light can coexist without malicious intentions.

As a Catalyst or an Activator, I hold the mirror vibration to everyone, that is in my energy field. This isn’t a thought or intention, it’s the vibrational frequency I hold within my being.

When we have suppressed, repressed, stuck negative energy in our bio field, a catalyst can move the energy out of your body, simply by sharing space with you. This can look like meet a complete stranger and instantly start crying, or meet a stranger that pisses you off for no apparent reason, or like sharing your life story in a matter of minutes, when you normally keep your life private. This can look differently to different people but its important to understand that the catalyst isn’t intentionally doing this to you, their natural vibrational frequency is vibrating at a rate that is shaking up and moving the stuck negative energy in your bio field, out of it. The most important thing for a Spiritual Catalyst to understand and become conscious of, is how their energy is affecting the world around them.  If we are in high vibes of love, joy and gratitude the world around us is released from pain in a graceful way.  If they are in self loathing,  or self hate, shame, guilt, fear, or powerlessness you will catalyze the world around you by destruction without saying a word or doing anything. It’s all about your vibration that’s vibrating in response to the thoughts you are holding, your feelings you are having,  and the emotional sensation that creates in your bio energy field.  Through having awareness of our abilities and constant alignment with source, being conscious of our vibration at all times and continuing to do our internal work while consciously using our natural abilities to aid society in the collective evolution and expansion is necessary for a spiritual catalyst.

Of course an essential part of walking the path is “standing in our truth,” having the courage to express who we really are.  This in itself begins to light a beacon for others to find their own truth, inside themselves.  But this is only really one small part of the role of a Spiritual Catalyst.  Such beings hold very strong energies within their soul ray harmonic, which first harmonises with their environment and then begins to emit a frequency that activates change.

It is important to say that a true Spiritual Catalyst does not change the eventual outcome of a person’s journey into truth, they only accelerate it.  So a true Spiritual Catalyst will not impart their own truth onto others, rather they’ll present an alternative possibility or challenge a key building block of someone’s own reality causing illusions to fragment and fracture, thereby opening space for a more evolved version of their own truth to emerge and flourish.  Holding the light for those who desire the light to come out of the darkness. 

I love you all.

I hope this message helps in your process. Remember to enjoy the process it’s a marathon not a sprint.  If you’d like my personal assistants or for more information visit my website KendraDivinePurposeMentor.com or Youtube.com/c/KendraDivinePurpose

 

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Life of A Lightworker, Shining Light Amongst The Darkness

We all have a story living inside of us, we’ve all experienced some sort of trauma that made us the person that we are today. There’s a saying that what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, but I don’t believe this to be true. See life isn’t about going through struggles trying to survive. Life is for learning when we experience pain it doesn’t mean that’s some almighty God is trying to punish us. If we could stop looking at pain as something that we don’t deserve and something we need to get over, and instead see what it is trying to us to teach us, to allow us to move forward. If we choose not to feel the pain and move through it, then we will forever be stuck in it, carrying around badges of trauma weighing us down to live in perpetual cycles of Darkness. Because we chose to hold on to it, instead of learn from it, we chose to judge it as a negative experience, or an unacceptable emotion and therefore we don’t allow our bodies to complete the trauma Cycles allowing all our minds to learn what the pain is there to teach us. Every
Superhero has a traumatic story of what led to them getting their super powers. I can almost guarantee you that the people that inspire you, your mentors probably have a backstory of trials and tribulations. The only difference is some learn quicker than others not to resist the negative experience, and well others of us are not such quick learners. Me being one example.

My name is Kendra and I’m The Divine Purpose Mentor, Spiritual Teacher, and Metaphysician. So what does that mean? Well, I was born with a heighten rage of sensitivity and extra senses.
I see the vibrational frequency of everything around me. After years of looking at these senses as something that had gone wrong with me, living in the shadows in depression experiencing complex trauma throughout my life. I hit an all time low when I was diagnosed with Lupus. I had made my mind an enemy for the majority of my life, and now my body started to believe my mind as well, and my body started to attack it’s self. My immune system was attacking all of my organs, tissues, and my joints were degenerating. I was in so much physical pain everyday, it became hard to walk without my knees wrapped, my hands would lose function without pressure on my wrists, it was hard to do anything, especially with a 1 year old baby girl on my own. I’d always been a very high frequency being(meaning I process information very quickly, I’m very hyper active, and I’m incredibly intense) yet I couldn’t get out of bed. I started to fear going to sleep, after going to bed after work on a Wed and not waking up until Sunday night. I felt completely powerless to my body and didn’t trust my ability to do something as simple as wake up in the morning. I felt hopeless, all I wanted was for the pain to stop. I couldn’t even remember what an absence of pain felt like. I developed a panic disorder that I had to be medicated for in order to leave my house. One night while bartending, I had let the other bartender go home leaving one waitress on with me. Shortly after a new customer that was bantering back and forth with me keeping everyone thoroughly entertained. Suddenly he went from being a slightly inebriated smart ass, too heavily intoxicated and very aggressive. I started to feel trapped and my vision was going in and out I wasn’t allowed to leave the bar without the waitress watching my bar and she was no where in sight. Without the resources to calm down my anxiety, I started to get so dizzy that I was going to hit the ground. As soon as I saw the waitress I yelled going outside watch the bar, and ran into the kitchen gasping for air. As I pushed open the back door it felt as if I feel Into a Black hole. I woke up to lights flashing in my eye’s by paramedics trying to revive me. I was so confused on how I lost control. I had dealt with drunk jerks my whole life, and never had a panic attack from one giving me shit. Drunk guys giving you shit is pretty much a given as a bartender and I had learned to see them like I saw my toddlers when I was a preschool teacher. I never took there belligerence to heart. My therapist recommended I always keep Xanax on me for emergencies. Every time I felt the slightest discomfort I’d pop one in fear of a panic attack ever creeping on me again. I tried to regain self control with dependence on anxiety meds that the doctor’s said I’d have to be on for the rest of my life with the amount of trauma I experienced in my short life and the increasing severity of the panic disorder. Suddenly my entire life was fear. I feared going to the grocery store alone, I watched as every aspect of my life began to freeze. I desperately wanted my life back, I trusted myself my whole life and no matter what I went through I always made it out with a clearer perspective then most. I thought oh my god it finally caught up to me and I get to pay for all the abuse I already paid for. As I contemplated this I scanned my entire life. What the hell was I a good girl my whole life for. I’d never felt to bad about being physically beaten nearly everyday growing up, because I thought it was normal. Their was always an apologize afterwards and explanation how it wasn’t my fault that people hurt them and they couldn’t take it out on the people that hurt them so we take it out on the one’s we love the most. I thought ok I can do that for you, and I was a good little punching bag for 16 years of my life. Now she has no recollection of any abuse and has created a story in her mind that I was the worst child a mother could have. So bad she absolutely never consider having another child. She has said, “she wouldn’t even like me if I wasn’t her daughter.”

I found myself in the hospital with hypoplastic kidney syndrome, my body was just done fighting and was shutting down. I realized the severity of my health, when the doctor took my mom outside the room to give her information on my condition, with my mother’s background in trauma medicine, it was very rare to see my mother get upset over medical ailments. The doctor spoke a few words and instantly my mother was belligerently crying. To see her like that, was a complete shock to me. I’d never seen her show genuine care for my life. I knew, the doctor said I was dying. I’d finally achieved something really being wrong with me, and now if I didn’t change my mind I was going to die, and something in me switched. I thought no I don’t want to die I just wanted her to love me, I see now that she does.
I went inside of my body and started talking to my kidneys, and then one by one all of my other organs, as weird as that sounds. Intuitively this is what I knew to do. While talking to my body I realized my illness was a secondary gain I’d manifested to receive love and validation from my mother. All I really wanted was to be taken care of by her and shown love not be sick or die. Once I saw her cry at the potential of losing me, I knew that she actually loved me and I no longer needed to be ill to know if she loved. My missing experience/ need was met and I felt released.

I worked on my organs, and then my joints and my skin, allowing myself to release all the stress and tension in my body and within minutes I felt healed. I asked to be taken off the IV’s and monitor’s, ready to go home. The nurses thought I’d lost my mind, and the doctor insisted to run tests before I was allowed to go home. I agreed and told assured them that I had just healed myself and my kidneys would be completely healthy. Sure enough a couple hours later the tests came back with a clean bill of health without even a trace of the trauma in or around my kidneys. The doctor was beside himself and disappeared quickly after telling me the good news. The nurses with very confused looks and apprehension got me checked out and allowed me to go home.

From that moment on, I started to see the world from a new perspective, I started to see how what had been perceived as being a disability, could actually used as an abilities that I could give to the world that is suffering. Finally all of the trauma, abuse, illness, loss and suffering I’d experienced in my life had a purpose. It was the experienced I needed in order to understand fully what it feels like to suffer. It’s the darkness I needed to feel comfortable in, so I could navigate through it with other’s, to facilitate healing leading them into the light.

It’s natural for you to feel lost living in a society with so many contradictions, judgments, and false projections that can becoming our identities if we don’t heal, take our power back and live our own truth.

So now that you know a little about me let’s talk about metaphysics. Metaphysics, literally means “that which comes after the physical,” is the study of the spiritual root of physical life. In this way, metaphysics shares similar goals with other noble studies such as general spirituality, theology, philosophy, mysticism, theosophy, and ontology. This sacred undertaking follows a global tradition that goes back to time immemorial and is making a strong resurgence now.

As a metaphysician, I believe we are immortal souls, seeds of the divine who are created and sustained in love by God. This is our true nature. It is our soul that gives us our life and our consciousness. To achieve its full power and wonder, each soul must go through the process of spiritual evolution, gradually maturing into a fully developed, divine being, ascending or self actualizing into Christ Consciousness.

The process of spiritual maturation can be likened to a seed planted in the ground. All the potential for the seed to become magnificent oak tree or beautiful rose is already held within the tiny seed. All that is needed are the right elements in which to grow, if nourished and undisturbed, the seed cannot help but become that amazing tree or flower. The soul of mankind is like a seed that God plants in the garden of creation. All that is needed for the soul to grow is already contained in the core of the soul. To fulfill that potential, the soul must embark on a pilgrimage through creation where it unfolds, eventually making its way back, fully realized, to God

Experiencing Feelings

You have not failed if you have a bad day, thinking you have is cruelty. Our emotions are always children and should be cared for as such.

Experiencing your thoughts. All that we have in the now, are our feelings. Feeling are states of consciousness were you are perceiving the conscious mind relates, the ego interprets the meaning to those feelings. Emotions are limited to the physical dimensions. Feed back system to the body. Physiological reactions to your thoughts.

What does sadness feel like in my body? Your brain isn’t defective stop running away from your feelings and fully go into the emotions. Drop into that feeling until the new sensation is left in a more positive sensation. When you feel strong negative emotion you surrender into it. What does it feel like, what does it look like? Follow each sensation as it shifts. When your ego pulls you back into the story of your belief systems, bring yourself back.
What have you been experiencing?
Pay attention to your body and feel what that feels like to your body? Observe it and be with it until it shifts?

Why does a river run one way, not another? Can it be coaxed into changing course? A deviation may be attainable but diversion is a very different to reversal. Some processes are natural and intrinsically right? Why do we waste time and effort to rail against them?  Even when the cosmos force us to face the facts that are hard to accept, we still must find a way to accept them. As frustrating as this may be, it can also be the source of amazing blessings. Be wise enough today, to work with what you cannot stand against!

I think therefore I am not,
Only when the mind is silent I am.

Unity Consciousness

It is believed that the journey to enlightenment starts by turning the eyes inside out and there is an african proverb that states “when there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot touch you”. As we have all learned by now, the way that view the world around us, is a projection of our inner world, and so our quest for happiness, enlightenment and satisfaction lies primarily upon filling our selves with light and love in order to then radiate it into the world.

The point being, we are the light because we are awareness and when we can increase our awareness, we expand our consciousness. That is, we make the unseen-seen and bring unconscious thought forward into a consciously understandable level.

You see, awareness is like a field of energy, “awareness is in your whole being, awareness of itself is like a light inside, do not imagine in as the sort of light you see, light and awareness is one of the same thing” – Mai Agate Valjataga.

All is one. We are all one. We are all connected and every man and woman is your brother and your sister. This isn’t religion, this is science.  While there are many interpretations of unity consciousness, and many perceptions to be had. Today I will give you a glimpse of mine own. I am not asking that you believe it, I am not telling you to take it as the “gospel”. What I am going to tell is that this is my perception. This is what I saw when I found the light, when I projected out of my body and into the universe and this is what resonates with me. We are not children of god because we are one with god not separate. We are all creator’s working towards expansion. We aren’t given things we don’t need, every person, place, and thing, is to be learned from, and ultimately for our universal benefit.
My physical body is the projection of my creator because I am just a cell in its body. I see that the planets are also cells, and we are cells within those same cells. My aura is my protoplasm and my body is the nucleus.

The entire universe is creation at all moments; cell multiplication, regeneration, death and rebirth. I see the big bang as the moment the sperm entered the egg. I see the milky way as the semen of the gods, and I see that I am a universe. Because I am capable of creating life, and I am part of creation, I am also a god.

When we create life we are creating a universe of cells with their own unique consciousness, no matter how small. I see that my soul is a spark in the night sky, a star, and when I leave my physical body and ascend into the heavens, I will shine bright for all to see. You and me.

Wholeness

What made: Abraham Lincoln, Oprah Winfrey, Helen Keller, Mark Twain, Joan Baez, Walt Disney, Susan B. Anthony, Harriet Beecher Stowe, Henry Ford, Thomas Edison, Steve Jobs, Frederick Douglass, and Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., household names?

They all had dreams.

They all believed they could make the world and their lives better, if they overcame their fears and followed their dreams.

They rolled the dice.

They threw caution to the wind.

They stood up for what they believed in, trusted their instincts, and went for it.

And the rest is history.
Everyone of us was born with a dream and though they may only lay dormant on a subconscious level they still exist. Those desires you have suppressed and denied in order to survive, are begging for you to be brought to life. We’ve been programmed be society to believe we can’t have our dreams and desires today because it makes us selfish. I’m sorry but that is absolute insanity. It’s humanly impossible to revolve your life around someone else because you LITERALLY are not that person, and by doing so you are only impending their ability to take care of themselves. Yes we are all at the highest level all One, but you can’t actually conceptualize of that oneness from a self hating vibration. I know this to be fact because I’ve stood in that perspective and I know that focusing fully on saving someone else took everything apart from life away from me. It was the universe telling me you literally aren’t adding to anything you need to pick a different focus.

I can see, hear and feel the universal vibration of feeling lost, scared, and over it. Not one person, or god, is going to fix the universal suffering, it has to be a collective consciousness that desires wholeness. Wars arise from a self hate blame shifting vibration. Stop blaming everyone else for why you aren’t living according to your own expectations. If your miserable and you feel like it’s because your putting your life on hold for someone else’s happiness, just stop it now, because your not benefiting anyone in the process.
It’s time to wake up and live for today not ten years from now when you can afford to be happy. No no no no I’m sorry no Amount of money would ever be enough to do something everyday that made me miserable. It’s your responsibility to stop adding to the universal suffering and follow your dreams today.
No war can exists when we make peace with the war inside.

If You Died Yesterday

What if you died yesterday, what would you feel looking back at your life? What legacy did you leave in your place? What dreams did you inspire? Who’s lives benefited from your existence? Did you fulfil your purpose? Did you reach self actualization? Did you use what you had from where you were everyday to make the world a better place? Did you suffer, Or did you end suffering?

Now can you feel all of the regrets you feel with the answers to these questions? Think of all of the dreams You held as a child, that never were manifested.Think of All of the time we put in to make a dollar, in front of a precious life moment. Think of All of  the memories that will now never be made.  See the children we didn’t raise, the family we never knew,  the love we couldn’t buy, the connection we could afford to create, the fun you never allowed yourself to have, the gifts you never developed, and all of the PAIN you created to replace it all! Think of all the ways you tried to Chase that pain away everyday,  yet it never subsided no matter what we used to try to cope with it! Maybe faint but still daunting. “But whatever it’s Just a way of life. ” Right?  Wait no…..

This isn’t a way of life,  It’s Litteraly Just A Painful Way To Die!

Wake up!

How does living in these boxes society has told you to fit into, brought you expansion? How has living up to someone else’s standards of should and shouldn’t, brought you great joy, love, peace, and harmony? How does working a 9 to 5 benefit anyone but the one’s your working for? How could have you used that time working towards something that would benefit everyone? When you saw injustice did you fight against, or did you create another solution? Did you have to manifest cancer or some other life threatening illness to get your priorities straight? Or where you so desperate to stop and just be nurtured by another, that you never got better? Or Did you get so confused by all of the contradictions, that you spun yourself into a dark lonely hole where no one could find you?  Did you die from not being able to cope with this painful, pointless, meaningless experience for one more day?

Our world has been standing still for over a decade and our people are growing depressed, and tired. Just wandering around with no idea what they are supposed to be doing here.  Even the “gifted one’s,” born remembering the universal truths, sent here to bring forth the messages from source to realign the planet, are struggling to do so. The fear of punishment from those in control and the trauma created in childhood from being so different, causes splits in the consciousness. They know what their purpose is, but are only part of a person by adult age. Most of them are hiding from the episodes that keep triggering really uncomfortable feelings. They avoid people because they think they are being punished by feeling the suffering around them. They have no conscious awareness that they can feel because they can transmute. They feel because they can help. But because they were socialized with the beliefs that their gods are all knowing, judging, and will punish any “sins” they make.  It becomes clear why they would think being empathic is a means of punishment. They get dragged down by society, trying to survive. Most of them highly artistic creators, without knowledge of what they can create, due to a highly restrictive and controlling socialization. So making a living, to most, is few and far between. Without an ability to support themselves, even the most truly power influential people, born with the messages to heal the world, are having a hard time navigating the logistics.

So now can you see that the only selfishness is not thinking your gifts are good enough to share? And how Sitting in a basement, perfecting your craft, truly doesn’t benefit anyone! Your higher self is already doing what you have told yourself your not ready to try. Do you understand that jealousy is admiring something you want to see in yourself, but have told yourself you could not be. Do you understand you couldn’t desire something, you aren’t ment to have?  The only reason why your desire do not manifest, is because of the thoughts you hold related to having them. You don’t believe you can have what you desire so You hate others when they mirror them to You.    You truly are the only one stopping you, from having, being and doing anything you ever dreamed of! You just have to believe you can.

So if you were given the chance to come back after dying, what would you do differently today? You might think your just one person and you can’t change the world, but if every person in the world change today, what they would regret never getting to do tomorrow, then the entire universe would shift over night. And then Maybe just then you’d realise just how powerful you really are!

Change your mind and create what you desire. Stop focusing on what could go wrong,  and get excited to see what will go Right!

Life Is To Be Celebrated Not Survived

Holiday perspective, This time is supposed to be about togetherness, giving and rejoicing. Let’s remind ourselves that we don’t have to wait for a specific occasion to do this. We can do something special for someone around us or ourselves any time we feel the need. We all deserve the benefits of a festive holiday, any day or any time the spirit moves us to do so, so then why do we wait for a holiday to honor our life and those we share it with? Why don’t we send flowers or give special gifts to those we care about when we feel like it? Or send a friendly card or cheerful email to someone we are close with or want to reach out to? These personal moments can be very enriching for all involved. Taking the time to make daily life special shouldn’t be limited to just doing something nice with others. It is equally important for us to do something nice for ourselves on a regular basis, whether it’s a walk in the park, a long hot bath, or taking a break from daily worries and stress. The time we spend honoring or treating ourselves can also give us a happier, healthier and more peaceful outlook.
The time has come to no longer put off, for tomorrow, what we should be enjoy today.
When you get so busy always planning for the future, stuck in a world where you just make a Living, when do we ever have time to have a purpose, and fulfilling Life?
Everyday should be celebrated as if it were a holiday, filled with beautiful moments of pure joy and excitement. Instead of looking back on good memories, be mindful today of the precious moment that are infinitely available to us all! When you change your mind, you change your life!
Be present every moment with positive loving intentions, and you’ll never live in regret!