You have not failed if you have a bad day, thinking you have is cruelty. Our emotions are always children and should be cared for as such.
Experiencing your thoughts. All that we have in the now, are our feelings. Feeling are states of consciousness were you are perceiving the conscious mind relates, the ego interprets the meaning to those feelings. Emotions are limited to the physical dimensions. Feed back system to the body. Physiological reactions to your thoughts.
What does sadness feel like in my body? Your brain isn’t defective stop running away from your feelings and fully go into the emotions. Drop into that feeling until the new sensation is left in a more positive sensation. When you feel strong negative emotion you surrender into it. What does it feel like, what does it look like? Follow each sensation as it shifts. When your ego pulls you back into the story of your belief systems, bring yourself back.
What have you been experiencing?
Pay attention to your body and feel what that feels like to your body? Observe it and be with it until it shifts?
Why does a river run one way, not another? Can it be coaxed into changing course? A deviation may be attainable but diversion is a very different to reversal. Some processes are natural and intrinsically right? Why do we waste time and effort to rail against them? Even when the cosmos force us to face the facts that are hard to accept, we still must find a way to accept them. As frustrating as this may be, it can also be the source of amazing blessings. Be wise enough today, to work with what you cannot stand against!
I think therefore I am not,
Only when the mind is silent I am.