What is Attraction?

Don’t walk through life looking for where you don’t belong because you will always find it.
Our attraction to another person is rarely as simple as we believe it to be at the time we experience that initial fascination. What we first register about another person is only the tip of a very deep and complex iceberg.

When our childhood needs are not met by our primary caregivers, those needs don’t just go away. Those unmet needs become our primary, unconscious motivators in our attraction to another. When we feel that strong gravitational force towards another person we often confuse this feeling with love, fate, destiny, or soul mate connection. This gravity is trigged by a deep starvation within us.  That pull that we feel is our inner child screaming to have our needs met, that were not met in childhood.  We are a vibrational match to who we attract in our life, because we either have the same wounding imprint, or we have polar aspects of the wound within us.  This meaning we either hold the same need, and through seeing it in the other your able to become conscious of it within yourself.  Or we see it, feel discomfort, and in attempts to relieve the discomfort, we project that pain onto the other person, to push our own pain away.  It is as if we are shown a mirror, and instead of seeing, and acknowledging the mirror,  we refuse to recognize the mirror and instead throw paint on the mirror to cover the reflection. We run away from it.  Neither the paint or the running away makes the mirror any less accurate in it’s reflection, nor does running away make the mirror Cease to exist.  So why then do we see the mirror and make the reflection itself the problem?  I believe that its because we see the potential of these unmet needs, that are not humanly possible for us to meet on our own, finally being met by another, and the fear of them not being met again, being more painful then the original trauma, so we stay in our pain and push the reflections away.  But the reality is that we vibrate in this way, so if we carry pain that is incomplete and have unmet needs, then our vibrational field will magnetically drawn in people that are a frequency match. We are a match to these people, circumstances, and situations that will allow us to find resolution for the pain we’ve experienced.  It does this by recreating the familiar feeling flavors or sensations with new people so that incomplete trauma cycle within us can find resolution. So our unmet needs, are able to finally be satiated by another.  The only way to break the negative cycles within relationships dynamics is to have awareness of what’s attracting us to another and the desire to move through the pain for the love of oneself and one another, not specifically just for the pain to go away.  If you push pain away you resist it, and we all know what we resist persists.

The more we as a collective consciousness wake up to this reality with desire to hold love instead of fear with coherence of both parties to consciously create cohesion and therefore completion of the trauma, so you no longer vibrate in that way, meaning you will no long be magnetically pulling in those frequencies that cause you to recreate these retraumatization patterns. What is not repaired, is repeated

If both parties are conscious of this pull and pattern within them and have a loving desire to both find harmonious resolution together, then a very direct authentic approach would bring rapid transformation for both parties. The way to do this is by creating a positive association with our triggers.  When someone is triggered by a person, place, sensation or emotion, it’s an opportunity for us to heal that trauma that exists within us.  Often we experience triggers and we lash out, run away, or demonize the mirror standing in front of us because we don’t want to acknowledge the pain that exists within us.  But like I said earlier, refusing to acknowledge the mirror as ours, projecting and running away, doesn’t change the exact accuracy of that mirror, nor is it the mirrors fault that you feel pain when you look into it.
I invite you to try this exercise the next time you feel triggered, instead of pushing the pain away, the next time you feel reactive towards another, take a step back close your eyes, breathe deep, count to 10, and allow yourself to feel the pain. Continue to breathe through the pain acknowledging any memories that come up but staying present in the here and now. If you desire to continue the conversation, do so from your heart space. Often it helps me personally to do this by placing my hand on my heart to feel my heart beat and ground in my heart mind.  When we speak authentically from heart center it’s with the desire to connect with the other, not be heard, or be right, or be validated in anyway. This is about desire to take the other as you and love them in a way that you desire to be loved.
At the end of our life we will only have a few questions that make up the entirety of our experience.

Did I Live?

Did I Love?

Did I Matter?

Our connections to one another, our relationships, are what we live, love and matter for!

Isn’t it about time we shift the unconscious styles of relating that create pain, fear and separation, into emotionally coherent conscious relationships, that capitalize on each others best interest, for the greatest of all good. As to no longer fight through life trying to survive, by avoiding potential pain in the future, but instead allowing for joyful relationships that bring expansion, while harmoniously co-create worlds of possibilities, or as I say, “co-creating Heaven On Earth.” Ultimately this life can be as pleasure or as painful as you desire so I ask that you make the choice and choose either one with conscience intentions.  Then the shadow and the light can coexist without malicious intentions.

As a Catalyst or an Activator, I hold the mirror vibration to everyone, that is in my energy field. This isn’t a thought or intention, it’s the vibrational frequency I hold within my being.

When we have suppressed, repressed, stuck negative energy in our bio field, a catalyst can move the energy out of your body, simply by sharing space with you. This can look like meet a complete stranger and instantly start crying, or meet a stranger that pisses you off for no apparent reason, or like sharing your life story in a matter of minutes, when you normally keep your life private. This can look differently to different people but its important to understand that the catalyst isn’t intentionally doing this to you, their natural vibrational frequency is vibrating at a rate that is shaking up and moving the stuck negative energy in your bio field, out of it. The most important thing for a Spiritual Catalyst to understand and become conscious of, is how their energy is affecting the world around them.  If we are in high vibes of love, joy and gratitude the world around us is released from pain in a graceful way.  If they are in self loathing,  or self hate, shame, guilt, fear, or powerlessness you will catalyze the world around you by destruction without saying a word or doing anything. It’s all about your vibration that’s vibrating in response to the thoughts you are holding, your feelings you are having,  and the emotional sensation that creates in your bio energy field.  Through having awareness of our abilities and constant alignment with source, being conscious of our vibration at all times and continuing to do our internal work while consciously using our natural abilities to aid society in the collective evolution and expansion is necessary for a spiritual catalyst.

Of course an essential part of walking the path is “standing in our truth,” having the courage to express who we really are.  This in itself begins to light a beacon for others to find their own truth, inside themselves.  But this is only really one small part of the role of a Spiritual Catalyst.  Such beings hold very strong energies within their soul ray harmonic, which first harmonises with their environment and then begins to emit a frequency that activates change.

It is important to say that a true Spiritual Catalyst does not change the eventual outcome of a person’s journey into truth, they only accelerate it.  So a true Spiritual Catalyst will not impart their own truth onto others, rather they’ll present an alternative possibility or challenge a key building block of someone’s own reality causing illusions to fragment and fracture, thereby opening space for a more evolved version of their own truth to emerge and flourish.  Holding the light for those who desire the light to come out of the darkness. 

I love you all.

I hope this message helps in your process. Remember to enjoy the process it’s a marathon not a sprint.  If you’d like my personal assistants or for more information visit my website KendraDivinePurposeMentor.com or Youtube.com/c/KendraDivinePurpose

 

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Life of A Lightworker, Shining Light Amongst The Darkness

We all have a story living inside of us, we’ve all experienced some sort of trauma that made us the person that we are today. There’s a saying that what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, but I don’t believe this to be true. See life isn’t about going through struggles trying to survive. Life is for learning when we experience pain it doesn’t mean that’s some almighty God is trying to punish us. If we could stop looking at pain as something that we don’t deserve and something we need to get over, and instead see what it is trying to us to teach us, to allow us to move forward. If we choose not to feel the pain and move through it, then we will forever be stuck in it, carrying around badges of trauma weighing us down to live in perpetual cycles of Darkness. Because we chose to hold on to it, instead of learn from it, we chose to judge it as a negative experience, or an unacceptable emotion and therefore we don’t allow our bodies to complete the trauma Cycles allowing all our minds to learn what the pain is there to teach us. Every
Superhero has a traumatic story of what led to them getting their super powers. I can almost guarantee you that the people that inspire you, your mentors probably have a backstory of trials and tribulations. The only difference is some learn quicker than others not to resist the negative experience, and well others of us are not such quick learners. Me being one example.

My name is Kendra and I’m The Divine Purpose Mentor, Spiritual Teacher, and Metaphysician. So what does that mean? Well, I was born with a heighten rage of sensitivity and extra senses.
I see the vibrational frequency of everything around me. After years of looking at these senses as something that had gone wrong with me, living in the shadows in depression experiencing complex trauma throughout my life. I hit an all time low when I was diagnosed with Lupus. I had made my mind an enemy for the majority of my life, and now my body started to believe my mind as well, and my body started to attack it’s self. My immune system was attacking all of my organs, tissues, and my joints were degenerating. I was in so much physical pain everyday, it became hard to walk without my knees wrapped, my hands would lose function without pressure on my wrists, it was hard to do anything, especially with a 1 year old baby girl on my own. I’d always been a very high frequency being(meaning I process information very quickly, I’m very hyper active, and I’m incredibly intense) yet I couldn’t get out of bed. I started to fear going to sleep, after going to bed after work on a Wed and not waking up until Sunday night. I felt completely powerless to my body and didn’t trust my ability to do something as simple as wake up in the morning. I felt hopeless, all I wanted was for the pain to stop. I couldn’t even remember what an absence of pain felt like. I developed a panic disorder that I had to be medicated for in order to leave my house. One night while bartending, I had let the other bartender go home leaving one waitress on with me. Shortly after a new customer that was bantering back and forth with me keeping everyone thoroughly entertained. Suddenly he went from being a slightly inebriated smart ass, too heavily intoxicated and very aggressive. I started to feel trapped and my vision was going in and out I wasn’t allowed to leave the bar without the waitress watching my bar and she was no where in sight. Without the resources to calm down my anxiety, I started to get so dizzy that I was going to hit the ground. As soon as I saw the waitress I yelled going outside watch the bar, and ran into the kitchen gasping for air. As I pushed open the back door it felt as if I feel Into a Black hole. I woke up to lights flashing in my eye’s by paramedics trying to revive me. I was so confused on how I lost control. I had dealt with drunk jerks my whole life, and never had a panic attack from one giving me shit. Drunk guys giving you shit is pretty much a given as a bartender and I had learned to see them like I saw my toddlers when I was a preschool teacher. I never took there belligerence to heart. My therapist recommended I always keep Xanax on me for emergencies. Every time I felt the slightest discomfort I’d pop one in fear of a panic attack ever creeping on me again. I tried to regain self control with dependence on anxiety meds that the doctor’s said I’d have to be on for the rest of my life with the amount of trauma I experienced in my short life and the increasing severity of the panic disorder. Suddenly my entire life was fear. I feared going to the grocery store alone, I watched as every aspect of my life began to freeze. I desperately wanted my life back, I trusted myself my whole life and no matter what I went through I always made it out with a clearer perspective then most. I thought oh my god it finally caught up to me and I get to pay for all the abuse I already paid for. As I contemplated this I scanned my entire life. What the hell was I a good girl my whole life for. I’d never felt to bad about being physically beaten nearly everyday growing up, because I thought it was normal. Their was always an apologize afterwards and explanation how it wasn’t my fault that people hurt them and they couldn’t take it out on the people that hurt them so we take it out on the one’s we love the most. I thought ok I can do that for you, and I was a good little punching bag for 16 years of my life. Now she has no recollection of any abuse and has created a story in her mind that I was the worst child a mother could have. So bad she absolutely never consider having another child. She has said, “she wouldn’t even like me if I wasn’t her daughter.”

I found myself in the hospital with hypoplastic kidney syndrome, my body was just done fighting and was shutting down. I realized the severity of my health, when the doctor took my mom outside the room to give her information on my condition, with my mother’s background in trauma medicine, it was very rare to see my mother get upset over medical ailments. The doctor spoke a few words and instantly my mother was belligerently crying. To see her like that, was a complete shock to me. I’d never seen her show genuine care for my life. I knew, the doctor said I was dying. I’d finally achieved something really being wrong with me, and now if I didn’t change my mind I was going to die, and something in me switched. I thought no I don’t want to die I just wanted her to love me, I see now that she does.
I went inside of my body and started talking to my kidneys, and then one by one all of my other organs, as weird as that sounds. Intuitively this is what I knew to do. While talking to my body I realized my illness was a secondary gain I’d manifested to receive love and validation from my mother. All I really wanted was to be taken care of by her and shown love not be sick or die. Once I saw her cry at the potential of losing me, I knew that she actually loved me and I no longer needed to be ill to know if she loved. My missing experience/ need was met and I felt released.

I worked on my organs, and then my joints and my skin, allowing myself to release all the stress and tension in my body and within minutes I felt healed. I asked to be taken off the IV’s and monitor’s, ready to go home. The nurses thought I’d lost my mind, and the doctor insisted to run tests before I was allowed to go home. I agreed and told assured them that I had just healed myself and my kidneys would be completely healthy. Sure enough a couple hours later the tests came back with a clean bill of health without even a trace of the trauma in or around my kidneys. The doctor was beside himself and disappeared quickly after telling me the good news. The nurses with very confused looks and apprehension got me checked out and allowed me to go home.

From that moment on, I started to see the world from a new perspective, I started to see how what had been perceived as being a disability, could actually used as an abilities that I could give to the world that is suffering. Finally all of the trauma, abuse, illness, loss and suffering I’d experienced in my life had a purpose. It was the experienced I needed in order to understand fully what it feels like to suffer. It’s the darkness I needed to feel comfortable in, so I could navigate through it with other’s, to facilitate healing leading them into the light.

It’s natural for you to feel lost living in a society with so many contradictions, judgments, and false projections that can becoming our identities if we don’t heal, take our power back and live our own truth.

So now that you know a little about me let’s talk about metaphysics. Metaphysics, literally means “that which comes after the physical,” is the study of the spiritual root of physical life. In this way, metaphysics shares similar goals with other noble studies such as general spirituality, theology, philosophy, mysticism, theosophy, and ontology. This sacred undertaking follows a global tradition that goes back to time immemorial and is making a strong resurgence now.

As a metaphysician, I believe we are immortal souls, seeds of the divine who are created and sustained in love by God. This is our true nature. It is our soul that gives us our life and our consciousness. To achieve its full power and wonder, each soul must go through the process of spiritual evolution, gradually maturing into a fully developed, divine being, ascending or self actualizing into Christ Consciousness.

The process of spiritual maturation can be likened to a seed planted in the ground. All the potential for the seed to become magnificent oak tree or beautiful rose is already held within the tiny seed. All that is needed are the right elements in which to grow, if nourished and undisturbed, the seed cannot help but become that amazing tree or flower. The soul of mankind is like a seed that God plants in the garden of creation. All that is needed for the soul to grow is already contained in the core of the soul. To fulfill that potential, the soul must embark on a pilgrimage through creation where it unfolds, eventually making its way back, fully realized, to God

Twin Flames and Soul Mates

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Today I want to talk about Twin Flames and what I’ve experienced also the difference in twin flame and soul mates.  First off I think that the terms are overused and used out of context alot. I believe that majority of people spend there entire life searching for this made up idea or concept of what a soul mate will bring to there life and some unfortunately never experience the true thing because they are looking for someone else to come into their lives and make them complete. Until you heal the wounds within and fill up the open spaces with love for yourself and compassion for all that is, these twin flame relationship can’t exist in harmony. It’s throws off the balance of the planet when these two individuals meet out of alignment and if they continue in a union in disharmony the earth litteraly gets thrown off it’s axes and destroys the world around you.  This happens because the universe is trying to make you conscious of everything you need to heal all at once so this union can bring the collective healing it is intended for. That’s why most of the time, when the twins meet the intense bound and energy between them is unmistakable, and the magnetic pull together is so intense. The two will come together so quickly and intensely yet trigger all of the un healed aspects to be made aware of the wounds within, and break apart as quickly as it began without real closure. This leaves you with homework to both go your seprate ways and work on internally. This separation will push you to step into your true authentic self, in power with the purpose of bringing your gifts forward to benefit the universe.

Soul mates are different, soul mate relationship can happen multiple times in a life time or never at all depending on the individuals life path and purpose. If you are reading this your soul knows it’s ment to be in harmony with another soul. Soul Mates are reflector relationships. They
mirror eachother subconscious aspects, therefore the relationship can be tough in every aspect but the connection between the two of you will be strong enough not to walk away until the expansion is achieved to bring you into the 5th dimension of consciousness. The 5th dimension of consciousness is where your twin flame unions exist.

  Twin flames possess the same soul, just in two different bodies, and may or may not incarnate at the same time here on Earth. When twin flames reunite, the entire energy of the universe shifts due to the immense power generated by both souls coming back together as one. The level of the collective consciousness is lifted exponentially by this union.

Twin flames seem to converge throughout many lifetimes here on Earth and on other planets, so when they meet again, it feels like they’ve known one another forever. It feels like coming home after a long journey. The sense of warmth and safety is unparalleled to anything you’ve experienced in this lifetime. You feel an overwhelmingly powerful connection with them, unlike any you’ve ever felt before.  You feel like you have walked into a lighter vibration in their presence, and don’t feel as affected by the troubles in our Earthly realm right now. You feel perfectly balanced and aligned with Source energy when you’re with them. This feeling can become the strongest addiction, don’t allow yourself to become dependant on this connection to stay connected to Source energy. You have had intense dreams or visions of them reappearing in your life, and felt their presence long before they manifested physically. Throughout your life you’ve slipped into daydreams seeing another person’s life. After meeting your twin flame and hearing their life story, you have a strong sense that you were with them in their struggling life experiences, reminding them they are not alone, pushing them to keep going.

You also experienced other synchronicities, such as seeing 11:11, 3:33, 4:44 on the clock, lights or music flicker on and off, feeling waves of good energy wash over you for no particular reason, hearing a song playing frequently on the radio, or other signs from your angels or messengers. Things in your life seem to manifest much more quickly than before, and your twin flame experiences these phenomena as well. Seeing your twin flame in person felt like “coming home,” and they trigger strong emotions in you because of the intensity of the connection.  You will have an extremely telepathic or psychic connection with your twin flame and can therefore sense when something is wrong, or when they’re thinking or talking about you, or when they distance themselves from you as well. Because both of you have such a profound connection to one another, you can experience the same emotions, taste in food, music, movies, hobbies, and have similar illnesses at the same times. Their pain is your pain; their happiness is your happiness. Not because you’ve taken them on as you but because you are the same soul.

It is possible the first time you both met, you were in relationships already, or you just didn’t feel prepared to come together and serve the universe through the love you both had for one another. Or you became scared of the intensity of this connection and ended it before it even began because you both knew you needed to heal aspects of yourself first before this relationship could come together to serve the universe.

Twin flame relationships are the most powerful on Earth, and both people have to feel spiritually, mentally, and emotionally ready to handle such a passionate, meaningful connection. This connection will shake the earth below your feet, therefore without having a solid foundation, you both won’t be able to stand in your power without knocking the other over. This doesn’t benefit the universe. It’s imperative that you love yourself,  develop a strong sense of self, and express that sense of self with authenticity always. This level of raw connection without self love,  and true authentic sense of self, will feel like enmeshment, and suffocating. This can cause one of you to run from the other, shielding yourself from the vulnerability you would inevitably feel in the relationship. Years may pass before you met up again, but now you both have healed old wounds and have grown on your individual paths. Now, you both feel capable of enduring life’s challenges together, and serving humanity in a similar way to bring that unconditional love to the universe.

Despite all of the hardships you may go through in life, you both continue to evolve together, and make one another better peopleWhile you may feel unbearable pain at times in the relationship, you come out stronger, wiser, and better able to navigate the Earthly realms. You realize that both of you were meant to be together in order to raise the vibrational frequency of the Earth, and aid humanity during these turbulent times as we shift into a new paradigm. You know that you couldn’t accomplish the same goals with anyone else, as you and your twin flame share the same visions for your future.

Being apart from your twin flame for any length of amount of time feels unbearably painful, because you function best in their presence. While you can go about your days on your own, you feel a deep sense of longing for your twin flame, and may even suffer physical symptoms during times of separation. You understand more about yourself and this human experience than you ever had before you united with your twin flame, because, he or she takes you to new depths of your soul that you didn’t even know existed before meeting them. They don’t complete you, they allow for you to see yourself clearly and completely.

Exciting plans continue to unfold for the two of you, at lightning speed. You finally know what it feels like to ride the rollercoaster of life, and for once, you let your hands wave wildly in the air because you know you’re safe in your partner’s hands. You couldn’t imagine yourself expanding your consciousness so deeply with anyone else, and know that you both belong together on this soul journey. You feel an overwhelming sense of love and attraction. This love is genuine and heartfelt and you feel magnetically drawn to their energy. This is not to be confused with lust or an obsessive love. Twin flame love is unconditional and transcends the ego. If you have found your twin flame it does not mean that the relationship will necessarily be free from issues or personal conflict. There may still be lessons and healing that must take place between the twin souls. Twin flames are still human beings on the physical level.

Often there is something that prevents the twin flames from being physically together in the beginning. This is usually because there is much energetic work to be done on the mental and emotional levels before the physical meeting can occur. If the physical meeting were to occur too soon, the energy can often be too intense to handle. It’s like attempting to ride a motorcycle with too much torque and being thrown off completely. The intensity will vibrate every single cell in your body, will take your breath away, and often cloud your cognitive rational thinking. Without conscious self awareness, you can easily lose yourself in eachother’s thoughts and emotions. This can become extremely confusing and uncomfortable and can trigger your ego into defending itself, in an unnecessary power struggle.  The best way to navigate this is to ask yourself, “what are you scared that you are  losing?” Do something in that moment to feel a sense of safety and breathe.

You chose to come here with a big mission that feels like alot of pressure all by yourself, so remember you two came here to serve the universe through the love you both have for one another and whether of not you are with your fame or not, you can still tap into this energy of source that always exists within each and every one of us.  Allow your soul to remember.
I love you all.
~Kendra The Divine Purpose Mentor~

 

The Power To Change The State of the World, Exists Within You

Prophecy has said,

“And, at the End of Days,

the first sign shall appear in the Heavens.

Justice shall fall upon the world of men.

The armies of Light and Shadow

shall clash across the fields of eternity.”

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And yet, the collective consciousness hasn’t gotten the message and we continue to hold fear, hate and seperation when we are beings of love and this causes us to vibrate in disharmony. It’s one thing if it’s just one person but our country hasn’t healed from any of the trauma the collective has experienced. Look at President Kennedy for instance, We didn’t ban together from a place of love to see that fear of change brought such a level of disharmony to a powerful group of people that whoever they are felt they had no other choice but to eliminate the greatest president to ever live. Instead of pointing fingers and starting conspiracy and wars with eachother, We could have looked Within ourselves to find our own fears of change and tended to that part within as we would a child in pain so again and again our country experiences things like Columbine, The Oklahoma City bombing, leading us to 9/11 that ultimately was the Catalyst for mother nature to take the reins triggering the Tsunamis and the hurricanes. We attempt to fight the pain away bringing that disharmony to grow and grow to overwhelming levels like now and mother Gaia is just ridding herself of the toxic energy. As a society we’ve been living for so long in the emotional dark Age, disconnected from our internal guidance system and detached from the world around us. As the planet shifted into the golden age, people start to awaken, they searched for solutions to solve what they know is not working but felt powerless, as just one person to change the world. The only way this destruction will ease up is if we all release the fear, hate, and illusions of seperation to allow our hearts to open with the willness to find compassion for all that we have deemed as against us. Shifting our focus to look for how every thing that causes us pain and destruction is only trying to help us in some way because this universe and our bodies are never against us they are only trying to help us get what we want but are unwilling to see or go for directly. We have to stop looking for an outside source to do the work for us because the universe doesn’t feel things as painful or see things as good and bad. It feels your vibration and your desire and finds the quickest way to bring it to you. We didn’t come here to be punished and suffer.

Transmutation of the lower densities is upon us now and mother nature is purging these energies from her planet. The only way for safety is to do the same inside of your own being. Then you will be divinely protected because your frequency will be in alignment with the earth leaving her no need to purge your disharmony for you. Lower densities of fear, hate, and the illusion of separation causes your frequency to vibrate in disharmony, it doesn’t serve you and to mother Gaia our disharmony feels like food poisoning that she needs to purge. Rid disharmony from your vibration and she won’t need to purge so violently.
The time is now. Release the fear of pain and open your heart fully and completely knowing you are safe and you are protected. Remember What you came to bring this world and stand for Love, Peace and Harmony for all that is. We are an interconnected universe if you feel like something or someone is against you, remember that is you and find how you can show love and compassion to that outer reflection of the vibrational frequency you hold deep inside. If you think the elements are against you try to understand you’ve been asking for an outside source to bring the change forgetting to change within and now that mother nature is bringing the change for us we make it the enemy. Choose to lead the change within honor the fear wanting to keep you safe but the thing that once kept you safe is now causing more destruction. Release all that no longer serves all that is into the earth to be transformed allowing love to fill the open spaces that remain, knowing that you are safe, that you are love & loved, and that we hold the power to shift the winds, calm the sea, and put out the fire, by uniting as one love for all that is.

Together We Rise, Apart We Fall, I Love You All.

Thank you for reading,

~Kendra The Divine Purpose Mentor~

Contact me at:

KendraDivinePurpose@gmail.com

Suicide (For those of you that have contemplated Suicide, thank you for holding on, when all you could do was give up, You are so strong and you mean so much to this world. Thank you for remembering that even when other’s have forgotten, I see you, and I Know and I love you Completely Never let go ~KendraDivinePurpose~

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It doesn’t have to come to suicide but I understand it often does. That’s why I do what I do, and why so many other healers like me have learned valuable tools to bring healing to the collective. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide please Contact Me, or reach out to someone without fear, knowing that at your emotions are valid and acceptable. The only fear is living one more day suffering in silence. It’s ok, to not Feel ok! When we feel empowered to embrace our emotions with full loving acceptance, even the darkest ones. This is when we allow our body to process the emotions and discharge the stuck energy to complete the trauma cycle, allowing the light to shine through on the other side.
It’s when we are shamed or punished, not allowed to not be ok, to not feel how we feel, is when we resist our own skin, when self hate consumes our minds, making us doubt our own ability to feel and behave “Normally.” We divide ourselves into acceptable and unacceptable aspects, trying on different masks we’ve learned from someone else, all to try to escape from the hate we hold within.

The mind creates different ways to cope. Either by splitting our consciousness out of our bodies, or by creating new people, new personalities that don’t have coherent access to the suppressed positive resource either, but they do, have amnesia from the experience that caused the blocks and created the pain in the first place.  The pain that you carry with you today.

It’s not about what’s broken within us, or about what’s gone wrong with us, it’s simply what has Happened to us! And I mean all of us, not just war hero’s. We’ve all experienced trauma,  tragedy, heart break,  loss, destruction, and devastation, in one way or another. It’s about accepting and owning our feelings, being lovingly present with all of them, knowing that they are ok. That you are allowed to feel any and all of your emotions, without needing to explain, or make excuses to anyone including yourself.    Just be, and allow, knowing they are all valid and worth your conscious attention.

The thing is we’ve gone about finding this acceptance for our emotional states, looking outside of ourselves for validation, before we even allow our conscious mind to fully connect to the “unacceptable” emotion to have full awareness of it.   This is when we do things and create situations that cause us to respond from a place of trauma. Manifesting our conscious reality from the dark shadows of our subconscious mind. This is when our positive resources become blocked, and instead of being mindfully aware of any given situation, able to respond at our highest and best capacity.  We instead react from survival instinct that the situation activated, triggering your body to release the stuck trauma cycle you interrupted somewhere in your past.  The thing that everyone needs to understand is that pretending our emotions don’t exist, hasn’t worked!  It’s only created more illness, and perpetual suffering.

Every negative experience is driven by these stuck suppressed emotions. It causes glitches in our systems. Ever noticed how accidents happen when your already pissed off or having a crappy day?  That’s because that negative energy is literally a magnetically charged energy field around you forcefully pulling like frequencies (negative energy) into your energy field.

Our emotions demand to be felt, no matter what your telling yourself they are still there, growing with more aches, illness, and issues that you probably believe are all unrelated.
Energy gets stuck, when it’s suppressed, It’s not allowed to flow.  But our energetic bodies don’t work when we force them to do something our mind beliefs is better. Our minds interrupt the process not allowing the body to do what it needs to do to complete the natural cycles. When you interrupt a trauma cycle from completing, you live stuck in it, until something is triggered to activate an old memory or sensory experience of like frequency to allow the trauma to complete itself.  I’ll use myself as an example. To say that I’ve experienced more trauma then one person she have experienced in a lifetime is putting it mildly. I’ve been to the bottom just before death and I fought my way back to the light. I’m at a point now where I’m thankful for my trauma because it’s allowed for me to be able to go to the depths of anyone’s pain meeting them where they are, and guide them out of the darkness. Because their darkness doesn’t scare me, it’s where I lived the majority of my life and now I get to use my experience to facilitate healing for Anyone in search of awakening. I know that if I can heal truly anyone can too.

The majority of my life experience has been traumatic, partly because I supressed the negative emotions I had about the trauma and loss I experienced in my childhood.  I’d raise my frequency high enough to no longer live in my past experiences, not knowing these were all incomplete stuck energy, so I was always completely blindsided when more trauma would seemingly come out of no where.   I’d be feeling happy, my life would be going great, and success would be within reach.  Everytime I’d throw it to the universe, I’d ask the Universe to help me keep it together long enough to grab this dream and everytime without fail the universe would manifest my reality of every trigger, every trauma, everything I hadn’t dealt with, was forcefully brought to my reality.  Because it’s exactly what I asked the universe for.  I didn’t want to be held back anymore by crazy situations that completely destroyed my potential future. I found a way to find blame in everything else other than my intentions. My intentions tucked way back in my subconscious mind.   I spent a few years banging my head into a wall with these cycles until I finally started to see these patterns. Thank God, I’m terrible at math, or I could have probably found a pattern to avoid every unwanted experience. But finally a few years ago, after litteraly losing my whole family, my house, my car, my relationship, completely alone, homeless. That’s when it hit me, my life started to make sense and started to shift.  I finally got the message loud and clear from the universe, that I was no longer allowed to pretend to be something that I’m not and put off doing what I came here to do any longer because the only option other awakening was death. Finally for the first time in my life I didn’t want to die but from the frequency I was vibrating at, near death experiences were my everyday life and I didn’t have the energy to watch out for danger around every corner any longer, so I surrendered.  I gave up fighting to survive. I managed to buy myself another car by then and the transmission goes out leaving me stuck by myself in an apartment for a month. I didn’t see that the universe was protecting me from getting killed, I thought I was being punished.  Then the universe took away my ability to sleep for nearly the whole month.  I would try to take things into my body and I’d instantly throw up.  I couldn’t eat much of anything and my body was constantly vibrating. I remember crying thinking this was how I was going to die, after all of this fighting, and now I actually made the conscious decision to live. I called a therapist I respected that I had studied under. He told me to release my ability to feel fear for just one day if a fearful thought came up, just acknowledge it but suspend my ability to feel into it. So I did for one whole day and what happened next is so crazy that I don’t even know if I can put it into words.

I had this spiritual awakening that catapulted me into another dimension. Every thought that I had ever thought was all being answered. I had this new awareness of why my life had gotten so incredibly fucked up.  I could see solution and new roads to travel. My connection to spirit was unblocked my intuition was more clear than ever and my general disposition was just calmer but with more intensity.

Since that experience I can’t really describe it but the reality I was previously living in didn’t have any power over me. I could see it clearly for what it was and that was that.  No more getting into meaningless fights over contradicting beliefs. I finally saw that everyone was entitled to there own perspective and it wasn’t my job to change it for them.

Since my awakening I’ve only experienced one extremely powerless moment that scared me but allowed me to completely trauma cycles I’d been carrying since grade school.  And since I now have learned tools necessary to heal.  It took that last experience for me to understand that I never got away from my pain I only created more of it by trying to get away from it.  I learned that in order to create the life you’ve always dreamed of,  you first have to heal the nightmares from your past, so you can clearly see the path your manifesting from.

If you can’t see what you want than your manifesting from your subconscious mind. By our subconscious mind hijacking our cognitive functioning,  driving our response systems into defense of our survival instincts that are currently being triggered by the sensory feeling your experiencing. This is when we respond and react in such a way that leads us to do, say, react, and respond in ways that we regret, that we need forgiveness for. By this time though, you’ve already abandoned yourself so don’t be surprised at what you may do to other’s. It’s time to turn the eyes inside and stop with the blame game, it’s a pointless battle that no one Will Ever Win.

So basically you’ve been living just a trigger or two away from emotionally re-experiencing the exact trauma you’ve been desperately trying to avoid, and over and over and over again you manifest the same horrible feeling even though you’ve changed all of  outside contributing factors, Except Yourself.

Maybe you became consumed by trying to control your reality, you don’t let things that remind you of pain to enter and when you have no choice but allow it to, you can’t understand why your having panic attacks. Maybe you finally got up the courage to express your feelings to the one your in love with, to be painfully rejected. So from that day forward you put up walls, responding with carefully crafted behavior to achieve the desired responses from others.  DOESN’T THAT SOUND EXHAUSTING? HAVEN’T YOU BEEN FAKING IT Until YOU MAKE IT, FOR WAY TOO LONG?

Even if your the very best actor in Hollywood it still will never exempt you from the law of attraction because you can’t force yourself to believe something that you don’t believe and you can’t think I don’t want something without your focus upon it. You can’t lie to your body by telling yourself that you love yourself, when you have all these unacceptable emotions that you hide.

News Flash..  Your body is still experiencing everything you’re mind says is fine. Your body is not against you and neither is the universe. If your mind is the only one out of the 3 that has the ability to manipulate, then why is it we continue to point the fingers outside? Your subconscious mind manifests these thought patterns in attempts to keep you safe, but now it is the only thing actually causing you pain.  It’s time to detox our minds and shift our focus to find new proof for the reality we want to create letting go of the hyper focus on what we don’t want.  Focus on what you do want and let go of the fear that your not allowed to have everything you ever dreamed of, because now you remember that you came here to experience greatness and now looking through the lenses of your truth authentic self you can finally see that you are ment to be here and everything you ever dreamed of is ment to be yours, because you can not desire something without the ability to manifest you’re desires, when you live in a universe that’s governed by Law Of Attraction.

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Experiencing Feelings

You have not failed if you have a bad day, thinking you have is cruelty. Our emotions are always children and should be cared for as such.

Experiencing your thoughts. All that we have in the now, are our feelings. Feeling are states of consciousness were you are perceiving the conscious mind relates, the ego interprets the meaning to those feelings. Emotions are limited to the physical dimensions. Feed back system to the body. Physiological reactions to your thoughts.

What does sadness feel like in my body? Your brain isn’t defective stop running away from your feelings and fully go into the emotions. Drop into that feeling until the new sensation is left in a more positive sensation. When you feel strong negative emotion you surrender into it. What does it feel like, what does it look like? Follow each sensation as it shifts. When your ego pulls you back into the story of your belief systems, bring yourself back.
What have you been experiencing?
Pay attention to your body and feel what that feels like to your body? Observe it and be with it until it shifts?

Why does a river run one way, not another? Can it be coaxed into changing course? A deviation may be attainable but diversion is a very different to reversal. Some processes are natural and intrinsically right? Why do we waste time and effort to rail against them?  Even when the cosmos force us to face the facts that are hard to accept, we still must find a way to accept them. As frustrating as this may be, it can also be the source of amazing blessings. Be wise enough today, to work with what you cannot stand against!

I think therefore I am not,
Only when the mind is silent I am.

Unity Consciousness

It is believed that the journey to enlightenment starts by turning the eyes inside out and there is an african proverb that states “when there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot touch you”. As we have all learned by now, the way that view the world around us, is a projection of our inner world, and so our quest for happiness, enlightenment and satisfaction lies primarily upon filling our selves with light and love in order to then radiate it into the world.

The point being, we are the light because we are awareness and when we can increase our awareness, we expand our consciousness. That is, we make the unseen-seen and bring unconscious thought forward into a consciously understandable level.

You see, awareness is like a field of energy, “awareness is in your whole being, awareness of itself is like a light inside, do not imagine in as the sort of light you see, light and awareness is one of the same thing” – Mai Agate Valjataga.

All is one. We are all one. We are all connected and every man and woman is your brother and your sister. This isn’t religion, this is science.  While there are many interpretations of unity consciousness, and many perceptions to be had. Today I will give you a glimpse of mine own. I am not asking that you believe it, I am not telling you to take it as the “gospel”. What I am going to tell is that this is my perception. This is what I saw when I found the light, when I projected out of my body and into the universe and this is what resonates with me. We are not children of god because we are one with god not separate. We are all creator’s working towards expansion. We aren’t given things we don’t need, every person, place, and thing, is to be learned from, and ultimately for our universal benefit.
My physical body is the projection of my creator because I am just a cell in its body. I see that the planets are also cells, and we are cells within those same cells. My aura is my protoplasm and my body is the nucleus.

The entire universe is creation at all moments; cell multiplication, regeneration, death and rebirth. I see the big bang as the moment the sperm entered the egg. I see the milky way as the semen of the gods, and I see that I am a universe. Because I am capable of creating life, and I am part of creation, I am also a god.

When we create life we are creating a universe of cells with their own unique consciousness, no matter how small. I see that my soul is a spark in the night sky, a star, and when I leave my physical body and ascend into the heavens, I will shine bright for all to see. You and me.